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i am now a photographer for the new long island yoga magazine.

this is what happens when you don’t let yourself get blown about by every wind- the storm passes, and you’re there to watch the skies clear. not picking yourself off the ground and cleaning your scraped up knees.

To my unpleasant surprise, my camera only shoots twenty minute videos. We continued on, anyway, in hopes of at least being able to shoot a mini class until I figure out where I could get my hands on some equipment with more memory. But the puppy kept crying, scratching at doors, and sticking her tongue up Kelly’s nose. When we finally got her under control, I ended the class five poses in because I wasn’t feeling confident enough to continue. It was choppy and I was giving out wrong directions all over the place. When I cleared my head enough to make a fresh start towards a full class, my battery died.

I didn’t get much done except discover that I have a lot more studying to before I can teach in a way that will make me feel proud and accomplished. And that amount doubles when you factor in my time restraint. Kelly and Todd disagreed, which made me a feel a little better. But I’m at Starbucks, anyway, of course, feeding my brain everything it will absorb.

I have standards set up for myself. I want to teach yoga to pass on the ecstatic feeling it gives me, and to inspire others, and clear some gray skies. Obviously, this is only going to come with practice. But I refuse to allow people on their mats before me if I don’t yet feel on the path leading to that ability. Will this achievement be unlocked by my first class on June 2nd? Who knows? If I don’t give it everything I’ve got between now and then, there won’t even be a shot.

(Source: serendipityyoga, via weallneedtobreathe)

If I were to make an hour long yoga class for YouTube, would any of you take the time out of one of your days to take the class and give me honest feedback? No yoga experience necessary!

So much information. So little time.

I found out today that my written exam is on June 1st and that I will be teaching my first full class shortly after. Can somebody tell me in what world YOGA causes anxiety? It would be foolish of me to doubt myself, because I know I can do this if I just keep dedicating myself the way I know I must. But, god, I need to wake up from this daze I’m in. The heartbreak is long gone, but there’s still some residue lingering there, keeping me from that final stretch towards where my tapas needs to be. I’ve been cutting myself some slack in that regard. But with training coming to a close, reality is setting in. The pressure is on so much that I had to leave a graduation party with my friends I barely see anymore and miss a family function because my mind was screaming at me to get some studying in before the night ends.

So here I am. Freshly vented with no remaining excuses as to why I can’t put the phone to the side and study, study, study away.

Exactly one month left until graduation. Let the cramming begin. #yoga

I am taking the plunge and going from traditional methods of healing to Ayurveda. I haven’t even heard back from the counselor yet and I feel lighter. These four months of yoga teacher training have really opened my mind up to so many options that are there for me to really become myself. It’s so surreal.

Midnight #yoga.

Back on that studying grind.

Child’s pose. #yogaaday #yoga @growsoulbeautiful

29. “Clouds may either obscure the sun’s light or clear the sky by sending down rain to reveal it.” -light on the yoga sutras by b.k.s. iyengar

- B. K. S. Iyengar

Study, study, study. #yoga #starbucks

holisticchica:

Make every pose an offering, when you surrender your ego and you make each pose an offering, whether that is to Mother Earth, the Universe, to someone you Love or to anyone as a selfless act it just opens you heart right up, I don’t know how else to explain this right now, but here is my offering to YOU, that it may help you in any way shape or form on your path :)

(via mayur-asana)