To my unpleasant surprise, my camera only shoots twenty minute videos. We continued on, anyway, in hopes of at least being able to shoot a mini class until I figure out where I could get my hands on some equipment with more memory. But the puppy kept crying, scratching at doors, and sticking her tongue up Kelly’s nose. When we finally got her under control, I ended the class five poses in because I wasn’t feeling confident enough to continue. It was choppy and I was giving out wrong directions all over the place. When I cleared my head enough to make a fresh start towards a full class, my battery died.
I didn’t get much done except discover that I have a lot more studying to before I can teach in a way that will make me feel proud and accomplished. And that amount doubles when you factor in my time restraint. Kelly and Todd disagreed, which made me a feel a little better. But I’m at Starbucks, anyway, of course, feeding my brain everything it will absorb.
I have standards set up for myself. I want to teach yoga to pass on the ecstatic feeling it gives me, and to inspire others, and clear some gray skies. Obviously, this is only going to come with practice. But I refuse to allow people on their mats before me if I don’t yet feel on the path leading to that ability. Will this achievement be unlocked by my first class on June 2nd? Who knows? If I don’t give it everything I’ve got between now and then, there won’t even be a shot.