for two months now, mitch and i have only been able to talk to each other ten minutes a week. it has been super hard, but totally worth it. in four hours, i will get to see the new person he has turned himself into, hold him, and talk to him for as long as i want. words cannot remotely express the relief i feel right now.

and there is still a 99.9% chance he will be home a week from tomorrow. not expecting to sleep for the next seven days.

When shuffle reads your mind.

okay at least some of you have to be tired of hearing about this by now but i just have to bring it up because i found out today that there’s a 99% chance mitch will be home on december 10th and I’M SO EXCITED THAT I NEED TO TELL EVERY SINGLE PERSON THAT I CAN.

• i don’t have to drop out of school anymore
• mitch is going to be home in 3-5 weeks
• i finally have time for my first yoga class in over a month
• for me, there is barely a trace of any sandy aftermath
• did i mention mitch is going to be home soon?
• because mitch is going to be home soon

in the midst of all the anxiousness and chaos of the storm, i finally got a phone call from mitch. i hadn’t heard his voice in a week. i’m frozen with happiness.

i got to visit my sweetie today.

i was taught a valuable lesson, once, about the meaning of love. it was discussed that the traditional definition uses words like “attachment” and “infatuation” and things that lead you to believe it’s all about losing yourself to somebody, while the buddhist definition claims that it is simply wanting another to be happy. it is courageous and unconditional.

i’ve said it a million times before, and i’ll say it again. this is my absolute best friend. and he’s going through a rough time right now. we are going to be apart for something around two months while he ventures out to get it all under control. not having him around is going to be hard. and as we’ve already discovered from my last internship, it’s not something that gets easier with each passing day. but none of that matters, because i know in my heart that he’s going to come back an even greater person than he already is.

until then, if i’ve ever needed well wishes and positive energies sent this way, it is now. i love him so ridiculously much, and there is nothing in this world i want more than to just see him happy.

also, it’s my boyfriend’s 21st birthday today. and in our world, a birthday is never complete until somebody dedicates a tumblr post to you. so here it is. and in addition to the well wishes, here is my public apology for spending all of my money on reese’s for you instead of a beer. i hope you had an amazing day, anyway. you really deserve it. love you, mitch. <3 

so keep the blood in your head,
and keep your feet on the ground.

i’ll be honest. it has been an extremely rough couple of nights. i’ve felt like a new person for too long. seeing as how life is not a perfectly straight line, a dip in the roller coaster was bound to happen. so i won’t question the cause, rather wait out the next lift.

but waiting isn’t easy at the bottom of a hill. luckily, there are two people in my life who are shining for me tonight.

the boyfriend who has seen my at my worst more than anybody else, and still stands by me completely. and my dear friend who is about to take me to the diner to eat our feelings.

it takes a long time to accept a push, a shove, or a helping hand when you’re so unwillingly stuck on the idea of how low you’ve sunk. that help though, be it from a person, place or thing, is there waiting for you when you’re ready to take it.
 

gpoy.

(via cosmo-kramer-the-assman)

second reason i’m back at town hall… lunch dates with this guy.

before today, no one besides family had ever given me a flower before. it’s a nicer feeling than i expected, to be able to just stare at it from across the room. my boy really makes me feel as beautiful, inside and out, as every other human should feel.

Just another Sunday morning with the boy. #yoga #antigravityyoga #ilovesundays (Taken with instagram)